"Spanking in the mirror"...Part One of my latest spanking account...

I have cleaned my aquarium,fed me fish...collected me coins...Served,cleaned & cooked in me cafe...So now I can sit down & write about last Tuesday...Oh did I mention it was my virtual fish tank & cafe lol...

I feel a lot less stressed this week then last week..."Phew!"...

I will shut up & write about my last spanking now...

After drinking our coffee & having a chat...Sir said "Shall we adjourn to the bed room...After 4 weeks 5 days of no spanking I was definitely ready to adjourn any where lol...

Sir sat down on the edge of the bed...I had my usual few seconds of feeling embarressed...I don't know why...Anyway...I bent over one knee...My upper body on the bed...Feet on the floor...Then I went all fidgety...So focused on gripping the cover...

Sir seemed to take ages...Which made me feel even more jittery...First he rubbed his hand across my skirt covered bottom...That sent little thrills right through me...Then he slowly lifted my skirt...& rubbed my bottom over my knickers...Before pulling my knickers down to just above my knees...That sent even more thrills through me...but I think I had managed to get the fidgeting under control...Once I worked out what to do with myself lol...

I am just sitting here remembering how it felt...


Apparently after 12 spanks my bottom was bright red...I could not see the bright red...only feel how much it stung "Oowww!"...Sir gave me a long...Hard!...spanking over his knee...Before using the strap..."Oowww!" that really did sting...After nearly 5 weeks spanking dry spell...I think I felt more sensitive...

I was so glad Sir did not give me a cold caning..."Phew!"...

After the strap Sir used the hair brush...What I had "Hinted" in my blog lol...That hurt...but not as much as the time before...Then he used the loop cane..."Mmmm!" I love the intense sting from the loop cane...He also used the twisted loop cane which I hate...but had "Hinted" for lol...

Sir did not use it hard...but he did use it rapidly...It was more bearable used gently & rapidly...but still feels like I am being spanked with barbed wire...Is a really sharp unbearable sting...Done rapidly it builds up...If it had been rapid & HARD!...I prolly would have been clinging to the cieling lol...

Lots of rubbing helped to sooth away the sting...

{I'm remembering again..."Mmmm!" [sighsss]} lol...


Behind Sir was a mirror...When I could concentrate...I kept looking up to watch in the mirror...but then I saw the downward movement...That is a wierd feeling...Watching it come then the delayed "Sting"...cos my mind was expecting the sting when I saw it coming...not seconds later lol...

I was watching whilst Sir was caning me too...but kept closing my eyes...

Yesterday I spent ages ajusting my mirror...Finding the exact position...So I could see my bottom & behind me...Next time I am determined to watch & not close my eyes...Will be interesting watching,anticipating,seeing it coming,seeing it land...Then the delayed sting...





OMG! I could not do that lol...

Like that...but not as close...

I will continue with part two...later.........................................

"I don't want your attitude,I have got enough of my own"...

I have left my cafe {Face book game} to carry on with out me...& come to write in my blog {Obviously cos I'm here writing lol}...John thinks I'm mad when I say things like..."I have got to go & serve my chicken"...Well it will spoil if I don't get there in time...lol...

It keeps my brain occupied...I need simple uncomplicated things to think about at the moment...Virtual life rather then real life...Though I am getting there...80/20 at the moment...80% getting over the crap...

I have decided that I am moving in February...A fresh start...

I will write about what I am supposed to write about in my spanking blog now...My spanking on Tuesday...but first the boring stuff about meee the person...

Sir arrived about 40 minutes late...I was starting to get worried incase he was in an accident...but guessed it was more likely traffic...Which it was...That & nearly driving to Colchester which is about an hour away lol...

Sir needs to stop obeying his sat nav...Whose the Dom? Lol!...

I was veeery relieved to see him...Though I prolly hid that well...I did not throw myself at him lol...I did not tell him how I felt either...

I had been up since 5am...Well awake before that...Worrying about meeting that bloke...Stressed out by my husbands reaction to meeting that bloke...Stressed out from worrying about going too far too soon with a near stranger I met off the net a week before...Had only heard of 8 days before...Totally stressed out that my dear so called estranged husband was actually looking for a woman...but he was telling me that "Because we get on so well now...I don't want anyone else"...but there he was looking...

I saw his profile in plenty of fish.com...Wish I hadn't...Wish I could be as secretive...Would save me a lot of hassle...

Where I put a vanilla {with a hint of sub} profile too...We are both separated...So what is the problem...What is wrong with meeting someone else for "Friendship" with added benefits...Unfortunately the man I met wanted a lot more then "Friendship" & see how things develope...& it seems my estranged husband wants the best of both worlds...

I doubt I will be moody & sulky if he meets someone...I was not moody & sulky when he had his "Special friends" with more benefits then me...Whilst we was together...I was totally unaware that my loving,caring husband was having an affair behind my back...In my house...In front of my kids,family & friends...I was the last one to know...

With friends like her you don't need no enemies...The whole time she was "Lodging" {You was not his sex slave luv} in my home...My family home...She was coming onto my husband...& my loving,caring husband was lapping up the attention...Wonderful friend she turned out to be...She wanted my husband to leave me...but he did not want to leave me...He wanted the best of both worlds...Which he could have had if he had kept her on a tighter leash...lol...

Anyway...I was stressing all week...Not helped by my disapearing Dom...I text that bloke "Sorry I can't meet you" blah blah blah...Plenty of time in advance for him NOT to drive down to meet me...

What do I get 6 hours later..."You have got to be joking"..."I will meet you at 2"..."Grrr!"...Straight away that got my back up...What part of "Sorry I can't meet you" Don't you understand...I owe you nothing...Recieved a few messages from you...Met you once...I am entitled to change my mind...

My response was ...something a long the lines of I text you at 5am...Plenty of warning...He tries to call...I reject the call...He text me "Call me"...I think "**ck off"...The whole time Sir was sitting there...Prolly wondering what was going on lol...

I was being harrassed by someone who can not take no for an answer...Who seemed to get it in his head that One meet is a promise...It was ending up being too much...too soon..."Slow down mate"...I am a person with feelings not a sex object...

I might be a sub...but I don't like being given demands like "I will meet you at 2"..."Eh? excuse me...Who are you talking to?...Try the respectful well mannered approach...You might get some where...

I will get round to writing about my spanking...but first I need to get this off my chest...Plus...May be...Men reading my blog might actually learn a little how to treat us women lol...

Very carefully & preferably with a long stick...{{{Grins}}}...

Anyway...After being given a intense thrashing...I went into subbie mode...Almost agreed to meet that man for coffee...but then I get "I'll meet you at 4"...Something about his car...I tell him to make it another day...He reckons his car is fixed...I tell him "No I prefer another day"...It was raining...I was tired...From getting up early & being thrashed...By then I was not in the mood for some pushy man...

I get something like "I am not coming down another day"...Up goes my back again..."Forget it then mate" If you are stupid enough not to check your text messages before setting out on a long journey & stupid enough to set out in a car with a dodgy exhaust...That is your problem...I gave you plenty of warning...I text him the polite version lol...See I can be "Polite" & actually talk "Straight"...

In the end I turned my phone off...

I did still very much enjoy my spanking session with Sir...Even though I was being harrassed by a plonker who does not use "Common sense" & "Common curtesy"...

I deleted my plenty of fish profile...Not ready for meeting desperate men who either never get any where so can't believe their luck when you agree to meet them...Or men who are only after the sex..."forget the friendship...I can't be arsed with the polite small talk"...Orrr the men used to "Full on women looking for sex"...Every mans dream lol...

Apparently there are a lot of "Full on woman"...I am supposedly more subtle...Plays hard to get more like lol...No I just want "Friendship" with benefits...Respect...The normal stuff...but at a pace my brain can cope with...Don't rush me so I start feeling over whelmed...

Unfortunately though I am being honest & straight talking...about what I am doing...My estranged husband is not...If he wants to meet another woman...fine...we are separated...but why deny it...Why go sooo moody & sulky when I meet someone...Why do a 2nd profile...Going on about "Looking for a companion"..."Being lonely inside"...Ummm!...

He done a Dr Who profile lol...Hence the companion...I don't get the lonely inside cos he is surrounded by his family...I thought we was friends...I thought we had a special relationship & would always be together even though we are apart...His words not mine...Though I agree...

He is confusing me...Why can't he be honest with me...I have already told him I don't mind him finding someone else...but he reckons he does not want someone else...Yet he has a profile in plenty of fish.com...

I know he feels guilty for all what happened...I also know he does not want to get back with me...He was very honest about that lol...Best friends...Which I think is better...We have got 18 years history & 4 children after all...I could never totally cut him out of my life...but...I feel like he is doing EVERYthing he wants..."The best of both worlds"...but I get the moods & sulks...emotional blackmail & guilt trip...{Not me personally I am more upfront with expressing my feelings lol}{Well attitude heehee}...

I wrote about that...cos that was a BIG part of me as a sub on Tuesday when I met Sir...It is not all about "Spanking"...Though I love being spanked...Tuesday was a very "Mmmm!" release...A release I needed cos of what was going on in my life at that time...A release for Sir too...but not for the same reasons lol...

I suppose I am making a big deal out of being treated like a person not a lump of meat...& being sub does not mean I will put up with being talked down to...& give in when "Harrassed...

Oh the last text...When I finally turned my phone on..."I am going home now-Good bye"...Eh? Did I not tell you hours before I was not meeting you...If you drove all the way down on the off chance I would be ordered into meeting you..."You are a prat"...Plus...wasn't I the one who said good bye hours before lol...

I know...Now I am being bitchy...but certain people bring out the bitch in me...

Going now "Phew!"...

I will continue...About spanking that is...........................................................................

Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus...

I have been spending waaay to much time on face book playing silly games lol...I didn't realise just how many Bs members there are in face book...Hopefully they don't mention the S word...cos I have got vanilla friends & family in there...but then I think they do too...After all it is a social net work not a spanking forum lol...

I have been up & down & all over the place resently...This morning I managed to land on stable ground lol...At least I have learned a few things about myself...& my estranged husband...1] My estranged husband is weird...& I don't think I ever really knew him lol...2] One year separation is not enough to heal...I am not ready to even attempt getting into another relationship...3] I will never ever be able to get out of a deep relationship with my estranged husband...He won't let me...& I am not bitchy enough to tell him where to go...He might have hurt my feelings a lot over the last 18 yrs...but I can't do the same...

Though obviously I have hurt his feelings when I react...to his weirdness...

I wish I could do a restore with my life like I can with my puter lol...

I need anti social protection {{{Grins}}}

Ohhh another thing I learned about myself 4] I am not strong enough to take on other peoples insecurities...Certain people can effect & over whelm me...May be that is my introvertness {Is that a real word lol}...When you are quiet...Some people can end up being too much cos they think they can get away with being pushy,dominating & controling...

Mind you I suppose that can go for most people...to a certain extent...

At least Sir gave me another "Mmmm!" fantastic...intense thrashing on Tuesday...Though I think I was a bit subdued...Still suffering the effects of the week...I was supposed to be meeting that man...but estranged hubby went into moody,sulky mode...Anyone would think I was the one who had affairs & screwed up our marriage...It takes 2...In our case it took 3 lol...

What is the saying..."Two's company,Three's a crowd"...Our marriage was too crowded...

I will get round to writing about our spanking session soon...

Oh yeah & another thing whilst I am in moany mode..."Richard Windsor" Ty for adding my blog to your site...but I would have appreciated a invite...That way I would have known to reciprocate...

Well that was not really a moan...

I will continue later..................................................................................

"Mmmm!" I got what I wished for...Full account to come...

I am feeling all stress relieved at the moment...Sir definitely done what he said he was going to do...Which was to give me a severe "Thrashing"...Also he "definitely" read my blog & took notes lol...

I will write about it later...gotta go shopping...

Erotic dream...& pussy whipping...

By this time tomorrow I would have been well & truely "Thrashed"...If Sirs text is anything to go by...I would have recieved a SEVERE! thrashing..."Yaaay!" can't wait...I have not been spanked since the 1st October...So at this moment I am feeling even more excited then I usually do...lol...

Sir said in email- "In fact, I'm feeling almost fully fit now and cannot wait to see you on Tuesday to give that extra hard thrashing you've asked for in your blog (yes, I read every line...and have take note.....!!). Your bottom is going to find out just how well I've recovered in only about 42 hours time now...and counting down".....

22 hours to go now...

Last night...I had my first ever dream about being spanked...Where we did not get disturbed...My dreams  about spanking are usually very frustrating...but this one was "Mmmm!"...I was bent over Sirs lap...I think one leg cos my head was on the floor...I seemed to be almost bent double...Being spanked gently but rapidly in one place right across my pussy...I could feel the tingling...

Mind you my dream might have had something to do with the video clip I was watching before I went to bed...

Not that one...Though I like that pic...I can't find the video clip I was watching...but it involved...

The girl laying on her back...Bondage tape around her ankles & 2 posts...The Dom was spanking her pussy & inner thighs with a crop...Then he got these clips on wire...{Like you would use to jump start a car lol}...3 on each lip...& tied to her ankle...So she was fully open & exposed...Then he cropped her pussy again...I think that had something to do with my erotic dream...lol...

Here are some whipping pic's...I like being whipped with my long schooling whip...but it has got a really sharp sting...The sound as it cuts through the air is sorta scary...in a jittery way...too...

 

If you imagine...You was bent nearly double {Not touching my toes lol}...The tip of the whip would catch very sensitive places...

I am going to do some house work now I have got my self even more excited lol...

Not the usual kind of orbs I post in my blog...

The creepy corner...As soon as I walked towards that corner I felt nervous...So I stayed back...M stayed back too...I heard this growly moaning noise...Asked if anyones tummy was rumbling lol...In the pic {left} you can see a so called orb {top left corner}

Not all orb ghost pictures are ghosts. In fact, most orbs are caused by moisture, dust, flash reflection, solar flare, and insect. Many have videotaped orbs flying around rooms - some are dust with light reflecting off of it; others are balls of energy that many ghost hunters are not sure just what they represent. We do not claim to have the answers, but we seek to present the evidence we receive and allow our viewers to research and decide on their own.It is hard to determine exactly the source of an orb for sure. But one test is pretty cool. Take a picture while stirring up some dust and watch how many "orbs" appear in the picture. This is a good test to learn about orbs caused by dust.

There was moisture on the ground...So I did wonder...but...That area did give me the creeps...When I moved away I felt like something followed me...Then I went from being hot to my back being freezing cold...So I took more photo's...

"Arggghhh!" creepy face less zombies in the church yard...That is the big bright orb picture...

As we left...I asked the ghosts if I could take a photo of them...Got...{below}

Is that a ghost???...John thinks it is a head stone...Which it could be...but it looks so much like a man standing there..."Spoooooky" lol...

We had fun anyway...Wandering around a dark grave yard at midnight...When we could have been at home watching tele...

When we first walked into the church yard...We came face to face with a dark figure...I nearly jumped 6'...but it was another mad person wandering through the church yard at mid night...

Mind you...We should have stayed at home to hunt ghosts...My house has got enough of its own lol...I have always known that my house is haunted...but it took us nearly 3 years to realise that the child crying & running down the passage at night...Is not my daughter...

For the last 3 years we have been getting straight out of bed & going to her...but she is always in bed sound asleep...the door still shut...Then it happened when she was staying with my parents...It is not my imagination cos we all hear it...

Halloween Ghost hunt...

I was looking up pictures...but John wants to go ghost hunting...As it is halloween...So I am posting just one pic before searching for haunted places near us...Last year we tried to go ghost hunting in the ruins of Hadleigh castle...but bottled it cos it was pitch black & very eeerie...We ended up wandering around the cemetry near us...Saw nothing...lol...

This time we are all going...& I am taking the camera...

I need a "Intense" thrashing...{Hint-Hint-Hint}

Only 5 days to go until my next spanking...Can't wait...Looking forward to lunch,dinner & what comes after dinner too...If he turns up that is lol...Though I think he will...but I am not getting my hopes too high just in case...He is someone off the net after all...{The man I am meeting after Sir}

I am looking forward to being given a intense thrashing...I deserve a intense "Thrashing!"...Not cos I have done anything wrong that deserves punishment...Because I love being thrashed...It is a very "Mmmm!" release...

For both of us...I hope Sir has fully recovered from his op to be able to give me a intense thrashing...Otherwise I will opt for the hard spanking instead lol...I don't want Sir over doing it...

I like that position {right} but I don't want dirty prints which can be washed off my bottom lol...

I want bright red stripes...Not a cold caning though..."Eeeek!"...

A looong HARD! spanking over Sirs lap first...

I don't want much do I lol...

Are subs supposed to blog their wants? Yeah corse wot are blogs for if not to hint about what we want...{{{HeeHee}}}

Ohhh & a HARD! hair brush spanking...Plus...I can't believe I am saying this...I would like to try a long...but not HARD!....Spanking with the dreaded horrible evil twisted loop cane...

I would like to feel what a long build up feels like...

It will be my first spanking of my 41st year...Hopefully I will recieve a lot more in the next 11 months...

Gotta go.......................

Add on to previous post...

When I got back...I cracked {Not literally}...Sent Sir a email saying..." Have I done something to upset you?...I hope your Ok...Been worrying about you...Is it cos I played with & wrote about EB?...After saying B was out of order? Love Karen x"

He text me...Something about his puter...& meeting next Tuesday...
 
I should explain for the confused lol...When I put B I was refering to a different person to EB...I won't add why I said B was out of order...
 

Tuesday 3rd November will be a 24 hour kink fest lol...

I am feeling "Fantastic" on top of the world today...Grinning like a ...................

Up until yesturday I was feeling all...

My new ranting blog helped...I think I may have finally worked my failed marriage out in my head...It has not really failed as such...cos we are still together,if not as a married couple...We are still friends...Still love each other...

Our marriage & lives were never so called conventional...I worked out from my ranting in my ranting blog that...I am not really angry with my estranged husband...I am angry for allowing certain people to screw up our marriage & our lives...Hmmm!...Communication would have helped...A lot...Saved a lot of heart ache...Prevented a lot of crap............................

Anyway...Sunday I joined plenty of fish.com...Monday I exchanged messages with this bloke...Tuesday I met him...I could not be arsed with all the exchanging numerous messages,emails,texts etc etc...I cut straight to the quick...

That picture is nothing to do with what I am writing about...It made me laugh...

Anyway...

It was literally a blind date for me...I didn't even bother asking for a photo...Prolly would have looked nothing like him anyway lol...

He knew what I looked like from my profile pic...

Our exchanged messages went something like this...

Dinner or a drink- " Hi,



I saw your details and thought you sounded interesting. Are you free to go out to dinner one evening or perhaps you would prefer a few drinks instead. I fully understand your nature and am sure that with the application of a little firmness mixed with care I could bring out the best in you.


J " This is a vanilla site...So expecting the usual vanilla replies...
 
RE-Dinner or a drink- " I like your up front approach lol...



Meeting up for either would be nice...Just to get to know each other...
Karen x "

" Dear Karen,

Good. Are you free tommorrow evening?
J x "

Sooo we arranged to meet...Out side the station at 7pm...I had my back up plan...Drink round Kims if no show...lol...

" Dear Karen,


"I will see you there at 7.00 pm. I would prefer you to dress femininely ie heels that are high and stockings that are black if possible.
J "
Note the "if possible" lol...

" Ooo!...This is where my not so introvert stubborness comes in lol...

You will have to wait & seeeee what I am wearing "Sir" Smiles sweetly}}}
K x "

Being told what to wear always brings out the stubborn in me...Mind you I am just basically a stubborn moo...

" Dear Karen the stubborn,

I will wait to see what you are wearing with baited breath. Mind you, you know what can happen to girls that are a bit too stubborn.
J x "

"  What happens to ladies who get too stubborn Sir? lol... "

Acts all innocent...

" They get their bottoms spanked and sent straight to bed with no tea. LoL

J x "

No tea? "Gasps" lol...

So we met last night...I wore a black lacy gothy dress...black tights not stockings...Long black high ish heel pointy boots...

When I arrived at the station there was this bloke sitting there...I asked him if he was J...It wasn't...well that was embarressing lol...

He arrived more or less dead on 7pm...I spotted him looking at me then coming towards me..."Eeeek!"...Looked nothing like I was expecting...It very nearly got off to a bad start when he tried to snog me...I moved away said Ohhh no NO snogging mate...We are meeting as friends only...

One thing I have learned in life...Honesty & straight talking is the best way in the long run...I see kissing as intimate...with someone I love {My husband does not realize I save my kisses for him}...Strange I know considering I get spanked on my bare bottom quite often lol...

May be with the allowing near strangers to bare my bottom & see my most intimate parts...then spank me...There is a slight humiliation subbie thing there...Other then that I am veeery choosey who I allow to be "Full on" sexual with me...

Actually I am not into "Full on" I am into subtle...Pervy old blokes leering at me like they want to get hold of me & **ck me...Really turn me off...I'm such a prude lol...

We walked to find a resturant...I don't get in strangers cars...Too risky...Ended up in a indian resturant...I wish waiters wouldn't keep creeping up on you when you are having a intimate chat about spanking,being tied up whipped with a crop...I also wish he would not wait until I had a mouthful of korma before asking about anal sex...lol...

We did have a interesting conversation lol...Apparently his g/f/sub moved to america...He knew nothing about the spanking sites on line...I don't think he could believe his luck finding a sub in a vanilla site...Though I suspect there are more kinky people then actual "Vanilla" lol...

Then he starts making me squirm by describing what he would like to do to me...I lost the ability to swallow...{the korma that is}...

He wanted to book a hotel straight after...I said no...we will have to save that for when we meet again {Or words to that effect}...After the resturant we ended up in the pub...A typical Eastend/Essex pub...It was funny listening to these 2 old blokes having a heated debate about politics...They got told off by the bar maid for their swearing lol...

We had a laugh...He was trying to leer at me...cos I had told him about the leering blokes who give me the creeps...but he could not leer...cos of his eyes...He has got nice eyes...He said he likes my eyes too...He has got a very...Ummm!...I can't describe it...When he touched me it was like it sent tingles right through me...When he looked at me I felt drawn in rather then...Ummm!...freaked out...He looked deep into my eyes but I did not feel uncomfortable...

I know I'm strange...

He reckons he is going to practice his leering in the mirror until he creeps himself out lol...We are meeting next Tuesday afternoon for lunch then evening for dinner & then going to a hotel...for drinks & a few hours of...passion lol...If he does what he described...Well...lets just say it will be a fun evening...

When I got back...I cracked {Not literally}...Sent Sir a email saying..." Have I done something to upset you?...I hope your Ok...Been worrying about you...Is it cos I played with & wrote about EB?...After saying B was out of order? Love Karen x"
He text me...Something about his puter...& meeting next Tuesday...Sooo by Wednesday I will need to tied to something to stop me floating off...lol...